Friday, June 27, 2008

the first glance at heart breaking thing after such long time

i woke up early morning to catch the early car goin to town....7am

OMG! i got an sms by someone to get to skul at 8.30am....aiyo
8.30am...i jz woke up on my normal working day

yea i am a late comer to work

reached town, grab HepA jab and went off to get some scores.... yea... all the most needed things
headed to skul

oh dear, arriving at the field, and looking at it again, sends a mixture emotion up my spine
happy bcoz its been so long never get to meet up, sad bcoz its getting "sick and old" after such long time..... arghhh heart breaking as i have in mind....yes, its unbearable! i wana cryout loud.... i wana utter bad words and start swearing on what had happen to it!

i braved myself to go near it..... i can feel the intimacy, the inner aura, the heart beat beating and synchronizing with mine....yes we still belong to each other... no stranger no doubt, pure feeling and no cheating

i was welcomed by all the current members it have.... poor little kids! i wish i have great power to save u people, bring you guys out from the suffering you guys in....bring u people go to places and witness the wonderful things outside... but back to reality, i am jz a human with limitation

i kept quite, so does its members.... i ask them continue on doing the things they are doing, preparing my soul to endure the pain that is coming!

oh dear....... its unbearable, and these people really can't feel it, as i kept my feelings well in me.

i picked up the lead and here we go on an exciting journey.... yet hard pathway!
at least we try.......

arranged a meet up in the evening to meet up with the more senior members, i had something in mind, but i shall let my instinct guide my way.... i trust my instinct up to the most as usual!

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